Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Plateau

Good Evening,
It seems Ive hit a plateau with my weight loss. First, it was vacation. I was not surprised there. I expected to gain AND I did. However, I did manage to lose most of what I gained. Then my hubby had a health scare(he is fine) and between all the tests and drs appts, I emotionally ate. I started to get back in control and NOW the a/c is out. So, the first few days, we either ordered out or hubby grabbed take out. I mean who wants to COOK when you dont have air. Well, thats getting expensive so I WILL cook tonight. Let me say that the condo is NOT miserably hot but its not as cool as I like it. I have the ceiling fan on plus a small desk fan blowing directly on me. Im drinking plenty and wearing very little. Hopefully it will be fixed in the next day or two. I said all that to say I have not been on plan. Im up/down the same 10lbs. I was hoping to hit my goal of down 50lbs by August 1st but it doesnt look like that is going to happen. Its so hard breaking old habits. Im disappointed that I ate through my emotions. I know this will be a life long journey. Some days I suceed and some days I dont. But, I am determined to never give up. I will continue to strive to better health and better life.

Keena

Sunday, July 1, 2018

What Ive gained

Hello

Ive talked alot about what Ive lost on this health/ spiritual journey but now I want to talk about what I have gained.
Growing up and even into adulthood, I had a very low self esteem or confidance. For a long time, I had believed that my friends were just pretending to like me and were just tolerating me out of kindness/pity. I will not go into how I came to believe that. Its not important. On the physical side, I thought myself to be fat and ugly. As you can see I did not have a high opinion about myself. Although I still have more weight to lose, I now consider myself "Big but beautiful"

However, as I have been seeking God more and more and by making healthy changes, my mind, body, and heart have begun to heal. I still have a long way to go physically. I still have many more pounds to lose but I have seen some small improvements. Will I be completely healed of my conditions? Only God knows that answer but I will continue to strive for a healthier me.

Through this journey my confidance and self esteem are rising. Its not bc of what Ive done. Its all bc I am learning who I truely am. I am a daughter of The King. I am a Child of God. I have been adopted into the Royal Family. My need of approval by man is fading. I have the approval of God Almighty.  My heart and soul are being healed daily. Dont get me wrong though. I still struggle with my human emotions. I believe we all will until we see Jesus face to face. As I fill my mind/heart/soul with the truth of God's word the lies of the enemy do not have the hold on me like they once did. I understand it will be a constant battle until we see Christ. His word says we are at war and I plan to fight(with Christ, of course).

This journey will not end once I reach my "weight" goal. This is a lifetime journey of healing.  I encourage each of you to begin your own journey of health and healing. 

If you dont know God and His awesome love for you and you want to know more, please reach out to me. I would love to introduce you to the love of your life. Falling in love with God is the best thing I have ever done.

Have a great week
Keena

accountability

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