Discouraged!!!!

I thought with the end of summer things would be better. WRONG!! The steroid injections helped my lower back although I still having problems but my mid back is still hurting. I had a MRI done and it is not spine related. So they sent me to pt. I start that in Oct. Meanwhile, I am on narcotics and strong muscle relaxers 3x daily. My gp thinks its a severe fibro flare. My ankles are even swelling so I take a diuretic every other day. I will ask my pt if gentle massge may help instead of a deep tissue massage. Im trying to do simple things bc my house looks like a tornado has come through. Its a total mess. I cant just avoid doing anything or critters will invade my home. My hubby tries to help but he works so hard that by the time he is home he eats then crashes
Then we had Florence. It was a stressful week. I hate hurricane prep. Its getting more and more stressful. I need to move to the mountains..lol

So to say the least Im gaining the weight back. Between the steroids and high anxiety, Ive regained 18lbs of the 42lbs I had lost. I have got to get back on track. All I want to do is EAT and not good stuff. I want junk food. Chips, cookies, pizza, burgers, brownies, etc. Plus, with all the money for medical expenses, there is less money for our food budget so that means cheaper less healthy food. Also my mind has reverted back to its old ways. Its time I take the control back. I need to reignite the fire I had back in Feb when I first time. I need my passion back. Please join me in prayer. I need your help. I feel led to fast but with the pain meds 3x daily I cant. I have to eat or it makes me ill. Thanks

Keena